Time moves like the wind. Some days, it moves so fast it feels like you’ll miss everything if you blink twice; and some days it feels like it’s just standing still, waiting for humans to catch up. Other times it just moves slowly, brushing through your bare skin like it enjoys caressing your skin.
Time has been that way for me; some days it moved so fast you barely crossed my mind, some days I feel like I’m frozen in time thinking about you – about us and what we could have been; other times the idea of you – of us – warms my skin and clouds me like a duvet wrapping me up in its warm embrace…and then I wake up to reality.
I heard you’re married now and that you’ve got a beautiful baby; a happy family or maybe I’m just hoping that you’re happy. I wish I made you happy. I wish I make you happy. If you were in my life I guess I never would have suffered the many heartbreaks and the broken promises. But it’s alright. I guess my voyage is just kicking off. The way I see it, I’ve got stories to tell.
Remember that night at your department, back in school, when we had that long conversation; the longest we ever had? Sadly it wasn’t about you and me – it was about you and the other guy. LUCKY DUDE. I was so chill; so much that I felt like an ice cube in the snow but truth is that I was praying you looked at me instead.
Back then, most nights when I was all alone in my room and alone in my thoughts, I could hear my head singing Taylor Swift’s Enchanted and I imagined we were laying on a mat spread out in a field of roses while watching the stars revolve around us. Oh well, shit happens, like you always said.
I still think about you every now and then; it’s not easy getting you out of my head. I guess I’m still longing. I really hope you’re happy. I can only pray you are. I wonder if I cross your mind sometimes.
PS: For me, it happens all the time.Elias